Monday, June 15, 2009

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Okayy. i know that no one will ever read this blog again.
so im just gonna post much of my feelings here.

firstly, bad 14 june.
He initiated that we shld pretend that we never knew each other.
He doesnt know how heart wrecking that was.
I think,
Im liking him more than i think i do.
But. perhaps its too late.
Im not as perfect as he thinks i am .
He may not like me as much now.
I could be disgusting to him for all i know.

I thought i could let go of the great mmrs.
but somehow sth obstructed me.
I've heard it from somewhere :
Mmrs are never forgotten ; its a matter of whether you want to remember it or not.

Stimes i think to myself,
if he really really likes me.
why couldnt he rmb my blog, and things about me
when i was sick or feeling unwell,
he wasnt really concerned.
We both love watching happy endings and fairytales.
can it happen to us?

Mayb i shld just give up.
and concentrate on other things.
Now im just hoping that Sa accepts me.
I pray that the Lord guides me to my .........

Last night, had a fierce fight with lala tan.
that stupid bitch :/
Took unglam photos of me. i demanded that she deleted em
She didnt want to .
I was really pissed.
so i snatched her camera.
she scratched me with her bloody sharp nails and pinched and kicked me.
WTF.
She has no respect for me at all.
then during the fight,
i dropped her stupid camera.
HA, serves her right .
Oh well.
anw, its problematic , that camera.

Laura's birthday ytd.
I didnt get her the cars water bottle.
I feel bad.

Haven talked to adrienna and sofea for ages.
I miss hanging out , them and delores.
delores, is like, m.i.a these few years?
i dont know.
growing up seems to be a tough situation.
people expect you to be mature, yet, if too mature, they scold you for not being able to relax and be cool. my mum thinks im more childish and immature than lala.
whatv. i dont see a need to prove myself to her.

You know you love me